I cant say anything I was going to say. Basically the night was good, then awkward.

So um.. Things that have happened..

Well we had bonfire night, which started off with me seeing Chantal again and us getting cheap haircuts that were actually really good! We both don't like hairdressers normally, but they were friendly and it wasn't too awkward =) Then I had to meet housemates and others and go fireworks, but there were sooo many queues that I had to wait for them for like an hour and kept calling Adam at work..
The field was big and muddy and I was in pumps which was so not clever. The announcer called out "We are looking for a Mr Ben Dover... this is no joke." Which was pretty amusing.The rest of the night was really good =) Lewes fireworks is most fun and not nearly as scary as I thought it would be.

I had reading week last week and me and Adam had planned on going to Wales. So we did. Friday we went shopping for the journey, where we bumped into Sarah, Dom and daddy Hughes in Tesco's car park =) We set off early on Saturday and went straight to Swansea to meet up with Mika ^_^ Adam bought a pipe for the weed from a stall that Mika showed us. He gave the lady a fiver and got fifteen in return. Mika told us that she's actually a Thai bride, and her new husband didn't read her information properly before he signed it which meant two children appeared with her that he wasn't expecting..
After this we took a shorter drive to Adam's cousins (she's about 35) . I met three of his cousins including her and they were all really nice and friendly, so it wasn't actually scary at all. Stayed there overnight, then drove up to Snowdonia area. We got there late-ish, so had dinner at the hotel. It was really cosy and comfy. Slightly weird being in North Wales in a hotel with just Adam and realising I'd be there for another 3 days..
Our first full day we decided to take a walk to a place called 'Swallow Falls'. Naturally, we both found this quite amusing. On the way we stopped at this really pretty place. Was a long stream, and a few waterfalls with a forest up a hill behind. We sat under some ridiculously high trees and smoked a little weed. On the way back down there was a robin and it came really close, so I fed it lots of bread ^_^. We got to Swallow Falls quite late, but made it after a lot of walking. Stopped off at a pub/restaurant on the way back and ate.

Second day we walked up a fucking massive hill thing in Snowdonia, and this is cut short cause I need to write the next entry.

It's funny, you hear all the time people saying 'I don't believe long distance relationships work', but you never hear people say 'I believe short distance relationships don't work'. This might seem a bit ignorant, but there are up and downsides to both situations. As Issy has ALWAYS told me, you have to be good with someone and good away from them for it to work. You can be with someone for a year or more and see each other all the time; when a time comes when you have to be apart everything could break down - one party could not communicate sufficiently, not feel like they've gotten enough attention or be a massive flirt (or even cheat). It may actually save a lot of heartache for this to happen sooner rather than later.
Then of course there's absence makes the heart grow fonder and I actually believe there's a good case for being married and living in different houses. Hopefully more sex than the average marriage too =P

I've had long distance relationships that haven't worked, and 'short distance relationships' that haven't worked. It doesn't mean that neither is a good idea..

Anyway, should sleep. Late night rant.

Basically at the moment me and Adam are kinda long distance and its going really really well =) Dont diss it.

Whoaaa, haven't written in here for ages.

General stuff: Loving having my own house in Brighton, and that I can get to East Croydon for £2. Also living a 3 min walk from classes, actually a lot closer than when I lived in halls. Been going out a lot less, but that means spending less money too, so its not all bad. Not been doing enough work as of yet, but been ill and slightly freaking out about everything. Realised I have a pretty bad ear infection, and now on 5 pills a day. May have to see a specialist if they don't work the second time.

Other things:

• Been seeing Adam every week and seems to be going well =) We've had a campfire in his local park with wine until 3am the other week which was really nice. Had our first 'mini-argument' about a toaster when tipsy, but just ended up being funny, then we accidently head-butted. Last Sunday was our 2 month thing. Not really a big deal, but any excuse really, and we went to see 'Inherit the Wind' at the Old Vic with Kevin Spacey in. Then he took me out for an Italian meal which was really nice =)
• Charlie and Sinead have broken up for good. Was quite a big deal, and shes burning stuff he's given her on a bonfire we're having tonight.
• Saw Tim Minchin at the Brighton Dome with Jo the night before last. Was so amazing, and I totally would. He got an audience member (oldish, bald guy) to dress up as a bear and dance around. He tried to do break dancing and stuff..
• Adam came down for one night last night. Was gonna be a surprise for me, but was going to my friend Jack's birthday thing, which was also at Komedia. The first time was funnier, but it was still really good =)
• Also, am seeing Chantal like, almost regularly now, which is really nice cause I consider her one of my best friends ^_^

Plans:

• Having a small Halloween party tonight, doing the place up and blowing up balloons.
• Tomorrow seeing Sarah and Adam again and going to the Glitter Room to watch naked ladies.
• Going to Wales for a road trip with Adam in a week =) 3 nights in a hotel in Snowdonia, REALLY looking forward to it.

Monday - Work experience with Doug again. Court hearing then a conference. Popping in on Issy and reclaiming my shoes. Then seeing Lauren later =) Been too long.

Tuesday - Buying ingredients, then cooking for adam and eating in the garden. Then cooking flapjacks and chocolate biscuit things and eating them in the park.

Wednesday - Adam is taking me to Ed's Diner then Ed Byrne =D SO EXCITED

Thursday - Going to Brighton with my mum to take my stuff down. Including a massive fucking telly. Oh yes. Then later going to Issy's and dying my hair. Pink and blue I think.

Friday - Going to Brighton with Adam. Meeting up with Chantal and getting stoned ^_^

Saturday - Adam's friends coming to Brighton. Meeting up during the day and maybe clubbing at night.

Sunday - Chilling out, then going to Komedia later. Then Adam leaves me in Brighton.

Adam gave me a pink top to his electric toothbrush last night. It was a Big moment.

Well. Proper update time or something.

Yeah, my grandad has cancer. Was really out of the blue a week ago, and I don't know how to deal with it really. I've never been that close to my grandparents, so I don't really know how to deal with it. It's made worse by my ineptness at phone conversations. I asked my grandma how she was and she just retorted, "Well how do you think?" which made me stutter a lot more than normal. My dad's really down with it, I really don't know how to deal with situations like this, and selfishly, I'm glad I'm going back to Brighton soon.

The barrister work in London was quite amazing. The walk there is through a rose garden and past a fountain, just off Fleet Street. Unfortunately I was ill yesterday, and the judge is ill tomorrow, so I'm going in again on Monday as there is a court case in Reigate and a conference for me to sit in on.

Stuff with Adam is kinda really good. It's the least stressful relationship I've been in. He's taking me out for a Mexican on Friday up in town, and next Wednesday he's taking me to see Ed Byrne as I have no money and he won't let me be guilty. He's already cooked for my parents which is pretty.. good? Weird? I don't know, but they like him now =P And all my friends like him. Issy says he seems like one of her best mates already, which is a bit fast but kinda sweet haha. We're planning a trip to see Sarah Fairy in Cheltenham then go to Wales to chill out in the country in my reading week, which I'm already looking forward to =D Wooooooooo.

Bad things:

• My grandad has cancer.
• I have an illness that keeps forming into something new and random and WONT GO AWAY.
• Had an argument with my dad that's left me just wanting to go back to Brighton.

Good things:

• Me and Adam are still really good. He's meant to be here now to look after me.
• Doing a week work experience with Issy's uncle who is a barrister, and its made me realise I really love law.
• BRIGHTON SOON. Am showing Adam around =)

I'm basically really happy but skint right now.

Me and Adam are going to have a country walk and stuff soon =) And I'm looking forward to going to Brighton and I have a free house, woop!

Ahhhh. I met most of Adam's close guy mates last night. I was pretty shy and quiet, but he said that he's normally the shy one out of the group, but when his best mate, Adam (yes, another one), is there, he's much more confident and loud. Basically exactly the same with me and Issy =) Issy was gonna come with, but she started feeling really ill, so went to Scott's (this guy she's kinda seeing). Me and Adam went to his friend's birthday BBQ and he picked up Issy and gave her a lift on the way home... which wasn't on his way to anywhere actually. He said his friends liked me, and Sam was there who I already knew which made it more fun. Also heard some stories about when they all went to a strip club in Amsterdam that basically made my night. Adam stayed over and left for work at 6.30am. He left a post-it note on my phone which was really cute aha =P

EXAM IN THE MORNING. Am shitting myself. Working in Icy's office the day after that, and Spain the day after that.

My brother's going to Oxford Brookes while I'm in Spain. Last night he told me he really wanted to spend more time with me and that although he really liked Adam he was a bit jealous or something. I woke him up with a hot chocolate in bed this morning.

 

NEED TO REVISE ARGFHHHHH!!!!!

Met Adam's kid, Jess, today. He came round to cheer me up and brought her with him. She's so cute... It's really weird though, we were walking in the park, and I was holding hands with both of them.. When she left she gave me a massive hug and said she loved me. So cute! But so weird!

Me and Adam are gonna try and make it work when we go Brighton. I'm reaaaaally happy generally, but stressed about exam eep!

Life is good. I am KNACKERED. About 20 people are sitting in my garden later. Please don't rain sky.

Many things have been happening. Sarah has a boyfriend too. They eat each others faces a lot. =P

Issy and Freya both like the same guy. Was complicated, but then he was a bit of a cock and made out with someone's girlfriend in the middle of the Sheep. Drama.

Me and Adam are good. We're sleeping in a double bed with Issy on Sunday night. We all find this pretty hilarious as there is blatently 3 of us in this relationship. He's already planning on staying with me in Brighton the weekend of the 26th, so is all good. And all my friends really like him so far. Talked to one of his best mates last night and we get on well so this is good =D

Was listening to VNV nation... making me feel nostalgic.

But I don't have time for that and need to stop procrastinating!

Love to Icy for getting me a bit of work =D Love to Rob for staying over, hope Essex isn't too bad.

Sunday, me and Adam walked to the Purley Way cinema from my house. Saw Inglorious Basterds after having a Mexican. Walked back and  Adam met my brother. My brother said he liked him which made me happy =)

Monday, Rob came over and we watched Frankenhooker, Up and Withnails and I. Was really fun to see him again after aaages.

Yesterday, was Adam's choice of date and we went to some weird Cabaret/burlesque night, followed by Wagamama. He also bought me a glass of wine at the night thing which was over SIX POUNDS. Ridiculous.. We then walked to Trafalgar Square and he asked me out when we were sitting next to a fountain under Nelson's Column.

Am feeling pretty contented right now =)

(But fuck I have an exam in a week!!)

Adam asked me out today. I said it was a bit soon...

I also have a black eye because I accidently hit my head on a table in front of him. Class.

Issy was really ill and the triple date was almost cancelled, but wasn't. Her being ill along with me drinking on anti-biotics led to a weird start of the night. Ended with me and Adam in my park watching the stars. I mean what the fuck. I don't do stuff like that... He said he likes me likes me and wants to see me lots. Eeeeeep!

I'm going on a triple date tomorrow. Arghhh! Issy organised it and asked everyone and told me I had to agree haha. I hate nervous stuff like that, prefer to be drunk =P

THE GUY I LIKE HAS A KID. SO WEIRD.

Edit: I forgot to say HIS KID IS CALLED JESS.

OK well last night was pretty funny and very strange. It was another cheap night at the sheep with Freya giving lifts and Thursdays are getting better recently.

It was all pretty normal until I noticed Andrew dancing right beside Issy. I haven't seen him outside of Brighton and I haven't talked to him since I called him a prick.. several times. He tried talking to me, and me and Issy both called him a prick. After a while he apologized and hugged me and said he really did like me. Later he asked if I forgave him, hugged me again and tried to dance in my group but I was having none of it haha. Was pretty fun being a bit popular as it was easier for me to ignore him and I kept seeing him stare at me. HAH.


My friend Mark was there, who has a girlfriend. I was dancing with him and such, but after a while he kept groping my bum and playing with my hair and stuff. Got a bit weird after a while, and I kept shouting at him that he has a girlfriend, sometimes very loudly. When sitting at the bus stop, he came over to me and Issy shouted at him "DON'T GROPE HER BUM!", he kissed my cheek and Issy said "OK, you're allowed to do that.." and he walked off. Naturally, I found this hilarious.

ALSO, there was a guy there who looked and danced like Kevin. I thought he was a much cuter version obviously.. and at 10am I got a text from him. It would be the weirdest thing if I dated a guy who looks and dances like Kevin o.O He's sent me 7 texts and it's not even 1.30pm.

Such a weird night. BUT GOOD.

Hello. I would like to hit something.

On antibiotics again for an ear infection that I may have had for years and not known about. Annoying as I quite wanna party.

I miss Hooz tonight. Dunno why but I really wanna talk to her.

And BOB I'M YOUR FRIEND TOO =P

Seeing Lauren tomorrow. She's pregnant AGAIN. 4 months gone. Can't wait ^_^